Originally published on Dec 12, 2011 on trulysu.blogspot.in
Are you ever good enough? No matter how close to perfect you may be, it’s still never good enough na. There is always something, somewhere that’s missing & often it’s that something that is the basis of someone’s choice. What if there was Utopia? Would there even be something missing? Why don’t we have Utopia? I just don’t get why, when we’re tired of mistakes & wrongs, don’t we have Utopia? You would think that when you reach a point when you don’t want to make mistakes, or be sad, or hate someone & be hated, or fall in love & lose it, you would get together with others like you and create Utopia. I mean, isn’t it simply logical?
I know someone who’s always been strong & independent; ever since childhood fought her own battles & wiped her own tears, who stayed strong & practical through tough times even when all odds were against her. But is there a limit till which she can be that? Doesn’t she want to give up & escape after a point just for a little while? Isn’t she entitled to it? She’s the kind who drips of loyalty, the kind who can never wish ill for somebody no matter how bad that person has been to her, the kind who gives people direction in life, the kind who’s sure of herself, the kind who’s principles never waver, the kind who doesn’t deserve to be worthless. But then that’s what she is. What if she was in Utopia? She wouldn’t be worthless na? She would deserve the equivalent of her strength. But then I just thought of the irony- if she deserves the equivalent of her strength, the hardship she’s been through is so rough to match her strength. Am I right? I wonder that if she just wants a change & leaves something because she’s drained of her strength, will she be looked down upon? Will people call her weak? But she’s been so strong her entire life; will that be overridden if she escapes once?
Is escapism bad? Does that indicate a weak personality? Is it addictive like a drug? This wouldn’t even be necessary if there was Utopia. If someone’s fighting for a parliament bill to clean up a vicious system, I think we should go all the way and create Utopia. That’s the key to it all. That’s the one thing we can never have.